Search in 2007: Convince me some more!
There was still a lot to do. I was convinced this could work, although how much would need to be done did not cross my mind. I had a technical team, I thought. Mandrake and Nigel seemed to be on board, but I had my doubts. They didn’t have the same “fire in the belly” that I had. It would all play out later.
I suspected I needed a mentor to guide me in the angel/venture capital realm. I contacted someone who knew someone through my brother. We spoke a few times, and he seemed enthusiastic about how this would play out in the social sphere. I was only interested in valid search results, but I downplayed my doubts and had a few more meetings.
He insisted that I needed to get ready to make a presentation, an elevator speech to a panel of angel investors. He indicated it would take close to eighteen months before I could ever get to anyone, and at any point I could be shot down.
This point should have been a red flag, and it was, but I ignored it like I had been ignoring other red flags. It made no sense to me that I would be trying to sell an idea with nothing to show. I chose, wisely, to build the system rather than try to come up with a business plan to build something I had not built, but simply said I could.
I knew that being fearless was not going to impress anyone. I had a lot of college credits but no degree. I taught myself every technology I wanted to use. I can hear you thinking, “sure…and in his own mind he’s an expert!”. I knew a lot of people would think that, and I would too, so I knew I had to perform first before claiming I knew what I was doing.
It is good to be suspicious of other people’s motives, especially if you have nothing to motivate them with. After all was said and done, my enthusiasm for the project kept people from being honest with me, and telling me that they were not going to help. Some said they would help; they helped me burn through all my seed money while they did nothing, and got mad at me when I questioned their performance. Yup…I was dealing with a sociopath on my team, and I had no idea. Why? Because it was my own sister, a super saleswoman who insisted she was on board with this. The stupid bells were ringing in my head and I was not listening.
Next: purchase equipment and start coding.